Late Bloomers

 
Blooming Later in Life Has it’s Advantages
 
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I always thought that being a late bloomer was a negative thing, like you missed out on so much because you achieved success later in life. I didn’t give it much thought. I floated along in life for a long time, oblivious to what career success truly meant.
 
I was one of the lucky artist-designers to get an early start on my career – I had no clue what it was going to be. During the winter break of my sophomore year in college, the father of my high school BFF asked me if I was interested in being a summer intern at his advertising agency. Hello job-handed-on-a-silver-platter. 
 
That summer I learned how to key-line and paste-up an agricultural quarterly magazine, spec type for the typographer, operate the stat machine and lucigraph, prepare boards for the printer, and also get insights into the world of advertising. It went so well that I returned the following two summers interning until I graduated and became a full-fledged production/layout artist.
 
After 3 years, I discovered that while I loved laying out publications, I was bored of agriculture, and decided to move onward.
 
I bounced around from one small design studio to the next in Milwaukee—creating more publications! At 31 years old, I was restless once again and the winter weather finally wore me down, so I made the brave move to Tampa, Fl. I was quickly hired at a large ad/design agency because of my love for publications and my mad skills creating them.
 
This time I was designing and producing an annual 90-page catalog/brochure done in 20 different languages for Royal Caribbean Cruises Int’l first, then for Celebrity Cruises Int’l.
 
I fell in love with the lifestyle niche there and then, and thought my career path was solid. It was the best place I had ever worked. Not going anywhere. Where’s the party?
 
Looking back, I never seriously thought about my future or had any real goals I wanted to reach, except just becoming a lead designer there, and partying with my friends. The only true growth I experienced at the agency was learning how to handle the high stress, manage the designers who assisted me, and juggle 20 publications at one time.
 
By the time I turned 35, I was the master of producing publications, but my design skills were just ok. I was never pushed to do great design, the work was more about information architecture design and how to fit a whole lotta content in 90 pages, and make it look good. After 6 years of that, I got burnt out.
 
Luckily an opportunity arose in Los Angeles and I quickly made a decision to leave Florida behind—California was always my dream anyway.
 
10 months later, my life became uncertain when 9-11 hit and I was left without a job. I worked on a United Airlines account and well, you know the story.
 
This is where the real story begins, about finding my true self and blooming later in life at the age of 50.
 
I moved to San Diego after visiting a friend there [here]. While it felt like home to me, I also felt lost and like I didn’t fit into the design community. I couldn’t land a full time position at any design studio or agency to save my soul. I knew I was good, but I wasn’t THAT good. And I was either too experienced or under-experienced.
 
So, I freelanced in order to get work and pay the sunshine taxes. I wandered for years and years—working part-time onsite and offsite. I did whatever I could to get by. And my design skills suffered. Once in awhile I got a great project, but even then, it was not my best work.
 
I don’t know what changed within me, but I do know my transformation from being an ok designer to doing my best work ever, was due to working with my creative business coach [RaShelle Roberts], and also from where I was at the time in my life when I was introduced to her. I had hit rock bottom—I was raw and broken, I was lost…so lost. How could I have ended up like this midlife? How did I let time slip by? I was too old to be hired, and worried what would become of me.
 
I won’t go into the details of the process we went through, but I can tell you she made me dig deep—to find out who I was as a person, as a designer, what I truly wanted in life, and in my career. Lots of soul searching, reading, writing and amazing a-ha sessions with RaShelle over the course of 5 months.
 
I had come back to dezinegirl creative studio 100%. I had stopped the vicious circle of getting part time work when my business got slow, which would cause me to lose my focus on dezinegirl and have to start all over again when the gigs ended.
 
During the process [it’s still a process] with RaShelle I discovered the niches that I loved to do and did so well at. My passion for design was reignited when I started designing infographics on a regular basis, and I also had the amazing opportunity to brand a new restaurant in Canada. I was on a roll.
 
Something shifted, something changed within me. I started to SHINE. I started to BLOOM. At 50 years old, I finally had confidence in my design abilities. I knew what I wanted, who I was, what I was willing to let go of, and what my focus was. Three years later, my design skills are top-notch—good, no, great design just flows out of me naturally, like a God-given talent. I can’t say the work has flowed in as easily—I’m still trying to even out the feast and famine cycles…but that’s normal.
 
But what I can say is that I am where I ought to be. That whole journey of my career path led me to where I am today: A LATE BLOOMER. And there is nothing wrong with that. I am a successful, gifted and sought-after designer…happy to be a solopreneur working from home on a variety of amazing lifestyle brand design projects.
 
To top that all off, I have hit the highlight of my career path [so far]. I was awarded [and I didn’t even have to compete] the redesign of all the menus for the Ritz Carlton in Rancho Mirage/Palm Springs [there’s another story there]. They are a wonderful team there, and the hotel and desert are so lovely.
 
It blows my mind… but at the same time, it just seems right.
 
Worth waiting for.
 
 

Abundance

Abundance. That is my key word of 2014. 

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Like many solopreneurs, small studios and businesses, I’ve gone through difficult financial times, even hitting rock bottom a couple of times in the span of my freelance years. Have you ever wondered why this vicious cycle of feast or famine continues? Why we never learn our lesson? Until recently, I had no idea.

During my last dark period of hitting the deepest rock bottom ever, I was blessed to have the opportunity to work with a creative business coach, RaShelle Roberts. I cannot say enough good things about her and what she has done for me personally, and for my business. But that’s not what I am writing about here. You can call me and I will happily rave about RaShelle to you.

The first couple of months with RaShelle was internal work, digging deep by writing in a journal and reading recommended books. The word abundance kept showing up in my writings and readings. I was never taught how to handle money in abundance, but I definitely knew the lack of. I desperately wanted abundance in my life but never knew how to make it stick. It came, and then went as quickly as it came. I felt like I had no control over my life.

My cousin recommended one book that I read, The Emotion Behind Money. Talk about digging deep. I couldn’t go very far without breaking down. I had to read it a little at a time, there was so much to uncover about my past and why that affected my present.

Here’s what I learned: Your past is your present unless you change it. There are two factors that determine financial success: how you process your emotions and how you create harmony or balance in your life. Whatever is at the center of your world creates a powerful force behind every decision you make. We tend to let money dictate our lives and be at the center, whether you don’t have enough or you have more than enough. The author says to direct your attention away from money and focus on inner wealth instead.

What is inner wealth? It’s the part of you that contains your conscience, values, core beliefs, your spiritual DNA. It affects your work, family, personal and financial life–the trick is to balance these four areas of your life harmoniously. When you know who you are, what you want to be and put that into practical actions, you can live your dreams and the money will flow. Faith into action.

The events and dramas of your personal life can trickle into your financial life. This blew me away. I never put the two together. My thoughts ruled my emotions and my emotions ruled my behavior, which in turn created my past, which affected my present. Our parents are the biggest influence on our emotions as adults. The way mine handled money, argued over it, the consequences, the lack of embedded itself into my core. I may have recreated my family financial history.

Life is about choices, and the life you live is your choice. We do have a voice in our financial future. When you understand your very core, it gives you power. We need to set intentions to build wealth. Your energy flows where your energy goes. I never forget what RaShelle quoted to me several times, What your resist persists, what you focus on grows. So true! Money is an extension of our self value and love for ourselves. If we don’t value and love ourselves, it reflects out into the world.

Open yourself to abundance!

I have; and while I may not be making millions, I am thriving…I’m happier than I have been in a long time. I know who I really am, I know my vision for dezinegirl creative studio. I am putting my faith into action. And I have learned many lessons…for this I am forever grateful.